Fears.

Everyone has at least one fear, some are like me and have multiple fears. I mean i'm scared of many things but i believe that when you are scared of many things it shows you have real emotion and feeling and in may ways fear makes you a stronger person. As you arent afraid to admit your fears.

Anyone who tells you they have no fears it a coldhearted,pathetic,coward and quite simply they are LYING to you. Everyone has fears - some are brave enough to admit it. I am one of those peopls i admit i'm scared of everything. all different sorts of things.

I'm scared of Owls, ghosts, loosing loved ones, that i wont move on from scott, that no one will send me texts like he used too, no one will fit that perfect image like he did - i'm terrified of that. It scares me that he has this hold over me it does. I'm scared of the dark, i'm scared of death, i'm scared of things that arent real. i'm scared of pain and hurt, i'm scared of the dentist, i'm scared of needles, injections. You name and i'm probably scared of it - i'm one of those typical girls who has fear.

But i'm not afraid to show that. and if a loved one was in danger i would face that fear head on. And i think that Without fear we wouldnt have courage. And the bravest of us all are those who can admit fear open heartedly and not pretend we arent scared. Because that is where the true cowards lie, not admitting you fear - but shying away from it.

"Courage is doing what your afraid to do, without fear there can be no courage"

Catherine cookson.

So, i've been off ill and my mum's got the catherine cookson books on dvd so i've been watching them. Jesus christ they are so good . We just watched the glass virgin. it was so good it was about this girl who had a crap life. she lived with adopted parents, her dad was a womanizer, her real mum and dad were prosteatues she got with the love of her life but he went to jail and then he ran away because he thought it would be better for her. so fucking good. we have loads of dvds left to watch they are SO long though seriously its like whoah. they are amazing though and i thought my life was crap - its nothing compared to these guys. I cant wait to watch the next one :D

Blog ya later ;) xxx

The zodiac.

I myself, am a strong believe in astrology, horoscopes and the zodiac. It pretty much takes over my life.

I mean theres all the signs which i know off by heart - if you told me a date i could tell you what starsign you are.

theres -
Capricorn, aquarius, Pisces, Aries, Taurus, Gemini, Cancer, Leo, Virgo, Libra, Scorpio, saggitarius.

Of course theres the new zodiac sign arrangements which in my opinion is silly because that is all i've known.

I'm so obsessed with starsigns that if someone is off a certain starsign i wont befriend them or i'm extremley wary of them because i know how my starsign and theres clashes.

i love horoscopes they really intrigue me and if someone does something wrong i will analyse it and see if its in there charcteristics of said starsign.

Yeah, i know. i rely on horoscopes far too much but i love them :D

Melissa and I

Myself and melissa molloy have gone through a lot of ups and downs since we first met, we started talking over facebook and commented on each others pictures - then we started speaking on msn. and gradually we got closer and closer :D

We've had a few ups an downs since we met, we've had a few fights and trust me they've been quite scary fights, we both never back down you see although in the end we just ended up laughing about how funny we sounded - melissa even said i sounded like jeremy kyle

So we've had our ups and downs and we never really spoke after the big fight until now and what i find funny is that Blogger. Has made us closer

WE LOVE BLOGGER (L)

Obsessions

i think people can get obsessed with all sorts of things very easily?



i mean some are obsessed with facebook, texting, boys, reading, a subject, telly, blogger ;) anything really.



i often wonder what is it in the brain that makes you so addicted to something that you physically cant seem to stop? and with obsessions its like a relationship in many ways - its all about this one obsession for so long and then BAM you forget that obsession for quite some time and move onto something else.



Perhaps its when the mind gets bored and you do something that stops this bordom and then it cant seem to stop? due to fear of bordom once again? i know everyones obsessed with something i mean you my dear followers i can name your obsessions.



Jenny - Muse

Emma - Harry Potter and Science

Laura - your obsessed with a few things - Jane,facebook, msn, music

Becky - artwork and those cute little cartoon thingys

anna - God

Melissa - Blogger

Me - texting

so my point is everyone is obsessed with something and this obsessive behaviour can bring out scary points to everyones personalities and i think obsessions are weird things they kind of intrigue me as to what triggers our mind to becoming obsessed? is it that we are drawn toward said thing? is it more detailed then that. i guess this is one of those questions we will never truly know and never truly answer - it gets you thinking though :)

The dentist O_O

Well. atm i am dying due to illness and my tooth
its infected which sucks -.-
and they kinda drowned me in dental mouthwasshyyy stuff
and now i feel like a walking talking dental practition.
:(
bad times for me
i dislike this
and i am dying
so just know that i love you all muchly
byeeeee for now...

Vampirism

well i've had some extremley depressing posts, lets cheer it up so i dont look emoish O_O well basically me and scott are done. finished. over. so i'm gunna move on and be happpy and find someone better, whats the point in living in the past?

Right so today i was sedated because i'm a wimp at the dentist so here is my story - the title ties in with my story (A)

I Got in to the dentist place and this old guy (he looked like watari) and this other dude were prodding me with needles - first off they couldnt find my vein. and so they decided to inject me twice O_O. And i kept swearing at them i was like jesus christ, oh shit, fuck, imaa punch them etccc they didnt like me much i think they were happy when i was out of it xD so i had my filling and tooth taken out and i woke up and i SWEAR this woman called me lucy >_> but it turns out i was confused from the drugs. and also i kept asking my mum the same questions again. i'm surprised she didnt hit me. then i fell asleep and woke up with blood all on my pillow and round my mouth = vampire. and i've been tasting blood and only blood for the last eight hours. Oh and i had a fit when i got injected O_O. and now my arm keeps twitching so now i feel like a vampire. NOMNOM Bloodd.
ALSO
As i havent blogged in a while.

i got a B IN MY REAL ENGLISH
AND A C IN MY MATHS
I Never have to do maths EVER agaain

*happy dance*