Sixth form. Well theres a lot to say about it for sure, i mean at times it great with the free periods and time with friends and the advance learning. Other times you feel at rock bottom, you feel so low and almost useless in everything you do it isnt great.
I mean i love the topics i've picked, sociology, history, drama and Re i love them to pieces but at the same time they drive me insane, with all the essays and work that comes with it. I know how i feel when i get a low grade, i feel like giving up, i feel like i can never do this. I can't improve, the amount of times i have considered just cutting my losses and going to college or something, its really stressful. I mean it can put strains on any relationships you have with friends, family and even a lover.
I mean i'm not afraid to admit that at sometimes yeah i am reallly struggling, i mean in my last two history essays i got a U it broke my heart its weird i never thought grades would bother me as much, and i began to not try in my other subjects because i felt well shit.
Today in Philosophy i got my confidence and self belief back, i got a B and was a mark or so off an A i swear i was so happy i nearly cried, suddenly all of my confidence came back and i thought i can do this. I really can, i'm going to redo my essays and the least i am getting is a D this time, i wont go down without a fight.
Basically the reason i'm writing this blog is to encourage all of YOU when you are feeling down, dont give up and even if you do dont quit. Wait and things will improve its probably only one subject you are struggling so dont give up the fight yet, you may have lost the battle with your subject but you haven't lost the war. You will win the war, if you believe you can do it. Keep smiling, i believe in every single one of you you are all capable of great things and i know you can do it. Nothing can stop you unless you let it so dont, keep trying. Keep that self belief and dont ever give up because you are in control of your future and you can make something brilliant of yourself, i know you can. If you feel down and think oh sod it i cant do it, remember this i believe in you, and i'm not the only one. Everyone out there believes in you so you should too, so grasp the opportunity and go, achieve make yourself proud, myself and everyone else around you already are. You can do this, keep smiling never give up be confident and finally Have self belief!!!
The person who always believed in me and i knew he did, he never gave up on me was kevin cook he constantly told me i was good enough and he was proud of me and i now hope i have made him proud, like he makes me proud by just existing. I love you kevin, and thankyou so so much :'D
i hope this blog has helped any of you who felt at a loss at the moment, it will get better and thats a promise :)
